Amal Session 1, Part B

0:16 okay so whether looking at the time whether this is going to be for our conversation right now or if we're setting the stage for the next time we talk where would you like to begin in this journey the only way through it is through it and for us to go through it is we need to know what we have and to

0:47 know what we have we need to go a bit deeper into Who I am you know because those I'm going to depend on these tools that I am learning about me to help me move forward on this path that's working on hiking on whatever we're doing

1:25 part of who you are is most important to better understand right now my heart yes buts on the heart cuz that's really connected to the soul and the soul is who you be right the external self as who you'd be externally on and you could shape that into whatever but it's really

1:57 all about your intentions and who you be on the inside so it's whatever is going to be done inside rather than what might be surfacing though so to really kick things off it's a self awareness and understanding you you want to look at your being at the deeper level and then beginning transition that yes beyond there seems this suddenly it seems like the conversation just shifted to a depth

2:29 there as your estranged yeah what happened you know there is this I you can't or how can you I mean you can't move unless you know what you have right I mean if you want to move you want to go traveling and you don't have a car well don't you need to assess that first

3:00 and if you have a car if it's not functioning don't you need to make sure that you have that somebody looked at it and checked it out before you make that long trip on the road and then just drowned it in the middle of nowhere so that's that's how I feel about it in terms of who I need to figure out my inner workings what's going on and why am I feeling this blockage why do I feel

3:25 this distant why do i if you whatever relationships out there that are working we're not working and what's what's going on there and then once the deeper understanding is a bit clearer so no it does not have to be perfectly clear it just needs to be a bit clear enough to where oh I can take it and move on so let's see what we can do here and then reassess again back to reassessing and see where we are and then see if we need

3:54 to go deeper and then move forward how you know we are on the right path and understanding your heart it's about what resonates if it feels right if it sounds right if it's resonating with me then then we are on the right path if something is off about it then I'll you

4:27 know my I don't tend to hide my picture expression says it all right handsome I can't hide that very good so what do you need Express or what do we need to begin exploring to start this conversation off around your heart maybe what is my heart what is my

5:06 heart but what does it mean but what does a heart bean it's yeah it is done or done it's a critical organ and you know we can put on that pathway about reality what is it in relation to who you'll be as a person who you be as an individual as a being what does that mean and my cooking model when I don't I could see the three that I have there where the roots are your being

5:39 the trunk is your doing and then the leaves and the flowers fruits whatever on the top is the outcome that's your ROI that's your whatever it says the results of your being and you're doing and so if your roots are not strong healthy and good the rest of the three is gonna fall apart you can't do anything and you cannot have any outcomes can have any results and the heart is the same way it's if you don't

6:11 have a good heart if you don't have a good intention if you don't have good internal workings inside of you here then because in reality your heart is your mind it's I mean yes your mind is the mind if you think of your brain but your heart is really the one dictating what goes up and what goes down and throughout your whole entire body and so what are you pumping in there

6:43 and so that's how I feel about you know the heart from that perspective it's that's the ones supplying your whole body with the blood and if you don't touch blood going up here you're not gonna survive what going down bell but you're not gonna survive either and after that blood is poisonous and it has some good stuff in it then your whole system is just gonna go messed up how does that relate to spots on the heart

7:15 the spots on the heart the spots on the heart you end up killing those when you encounter negative negative emotions negative behaviors negative thoughts negative you know some negativity and they're there because it's like what you value is not healthy or what you value

7:49 is I can't believe I'm gonna say that trying to get away from it but what your value is not as expected you know and it's like well that's not what I'm expecting so what is it that I am expecting and then you end up with those black spots because they're just well that part is now oh but that's really meaningful for me and I want to keep it but it's not functioning well so I

8:21 though do I let go of it completely or do I work on it and try and revive it to where it is functioning from within right now how clear are thoughts like how clearly can you replay smooth negative thoughts that have created black spots yeah not necessarily

8:53 sharing them here if you don't yeah how clear are those negative thoughts that might have created you know a lot of them are there there I I know what they are yet they're just because I tend to be more optimistic I tend to be more on the hopeful side I tend to be more positively thinking and so I'm always dismissing any negative thought that comes across but then I

9:27 can't and it's like I can identify them I I can I can see them I can pull them right out of the crowd all the other thoughts you know so yeah they're they're clear I mean not clear to where I can elaborate on them and go in details but they are clear to where I can point at them yes it's this it's this

10:00 you so would be the healthy version instead of becoming black spots or would they become it will be seamless he'll be integrated it will be just you don't see any difference between any parts of the heart it's like it's like a smooth smooth part that's just the air and it's clean we'll clear

10:39 how does that differ from how things are going now it will be more positive it's like there is a higher beat to it there is a healthier beat to it there is you don't it's like right now it feels like

11:12 your step step step then you're stopping then you have to sometimes step back and then okay let's go back up let's go back up again step step step step and you're stopping oh my god I got a step back then you can step back a step or two then you go and then so every time you're taking few steps to the front or maybe you don't take a few steps forward there is something that gets in the way stops you and then you

11:41 end up a step back somehow and then you pick up and move on without that it will be more about step step step step you might stop reassess see what's going on on but you don't necessarily have to step so many steps back if you're stepping back you're just tweaking clearing you know adjusting not necessarily okay I have to start all over again on this now or that went not

12:14 right or whatever the case may be so there isn't like there isn't any negativity about the stopping as much as there is now so the blockage is like stopping you we're standing still here now and it's like okay well what did I do now yeah it's just I'm consuming probably yeah what yeah we've covered a lot of ground

12:48 you've done a lot of work here I'm all in our our time is just about coming to an end but as we as we just begin closing this conversation what do you want to do between now and next time we speak next week my precious planner my

13:19 fashion planner this is the week fixes for the season and I typically start the week where you know my focus because there is a part that says this week's focus and what I like to do is to have my focus on the being and I focus on the doing and so my focus for the being for this week is is I'm calm so I just take it easy and become whatever comes through my way that's the

13:46 approach I'm going to approach it with and then as far as the doing that is concerned and I have not gotten there yet know what I'm gonna be accomplishing by the end of this week so between now and whenever we meet next it's just gonna be I don't know I mean I honestly don't know what that would be with certainty but what I know is that it's

14:17 gonna be a little deeper into what we discussed just maybe explore some things that would get me closer to what that blogspot is or what else can I do about that yeah so paying attention to yourself taking time to reflect through the ease and calm to to see what thoughts are

14:50 present and how those thoughts those emotions might relate to the black spots so next time we speak you can really kick off at a deeper deeper spot at a deeper level yeah yeah sounds good what have you taken away from our conversation today among living in paradox is okay and there is a systemic

15:22 perspective that popped up a few too many times as well and and it's okay to just be in the unknown I you know I don't need to know I don't need to know at all you know it's it's perfectly fine and yeah you and I feel like all the answers are here

15:55 and it's just a matter of pulling them out so yeah thank you for that well thank you for allowing me to coach you here a mom absolutely my pleasure would it be okay if I held onto the recording yes you may keep me posted if that ever changes but it's been an honor and a pleasure to coach you so far and I'm really looking forward to working with you again soon likewise all right I'm gonna turn the

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