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0:00 [Music] in my 20s I was uh pretty certain that I wanted to found a company a venture back company I came from a family where every generation started their own company and business most of them weren't that successful but that it was just an entrepreneurial kind of mindset so I felt like okay this is a natural course of action for me and I was just wired
0:32 for that as well like I was always thinking about new business ideas and whatnot so in my 20s I was certain that that's what I'm going to do I changed my mind in the 30s on that and I'm very happy I did that so the 20-year-old me would not have in any way expected the mindset of the 35-year-old me and certainly would not have expected the mindset of the 43y old me so that's one example another one was
0:59 one of the things I was always affected by in my 20s was this sense of lack and what I mean by that is that I was not satisfied with how things are in my life and over time I realized that I'm never going to be satisfied no matter how good my life situation is and especially in my early 30s I went through a very difficult kind of dark period in my life and it coincided with my father passing
1:31 away after a sudden illness that was very stressful to just see and help him with but also his death and my inability to really mourn his death because I was trying to stay strong for the rest of my family my mother and my brother and others and also because I had to come back a little bit afterwards to an extremely busy job I went through a few months of a really dark period you know
2:02 depression this was when I was 33 but that was transformative for me it was a very difficult period for me it was unlike anything I had ever experienced it was unlike anything that I thought a human being could experience by the way this is not unique to me it's like anybody who goes through depression knows this it's one of those things that you can't explain and you can't understand it unless you go through it so anyway so I went through that period
2:29 looking back I would say it was among the greatest gifts that I ever got because it led to a major life transformation in my 30s as I went through that period and for me it was very short it was like 2 months but after that period I had a very different approach to my life and to my life situation and what happiness means what Joy means all of those things after that I did not feel this sense of lack
2:59 anymore that I always felt like there was always this buzzing of like something's not right and I need to set it right I don't feel that anymore and I'm a lot more present as well so that's another change I am a lot calmer about things there's just so many changes between say my 20s uh and then my growth through my 30s and now in my early 40s where either opinions or ideas or Ambitions have changed hope that helps
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Summary
- Grew up in an entrepreneurial family, leading to early ambitions to start a venture-backed company.
- Shifted mindset in their 30s, moving away from the pursuit of entrepreneurship.
- Experienced a dark period in their early 30s, marked by depression following their father's sudden illness and death.
- Found the experience of depression transformative, leading to a major life change.
- No longer feels a persistent sense of lack or dissatisfaction with life.
- Became more present and calm, with a new perspective on happiness and joy.
- Recognizes significant personal growth and changes in ambitions from their 20s to their 40s.